tears.

so last night was my last night in l.a. i'm still here but not long. only less than 5 hrs. and 3 of those hrs are going to be spent in the airport.

[he] came by to say goodbye. of course that word was never uttered out of our mouths. we both teared up...more like me crying and everytime we deeply talk about the situation he tears up...i gave him the gift..the card w. sound he thought it was cute and the necklace w. the definition of love. he liked that one a lot =] he wore it on his wrist and said he's probably going to make it into his wallet chain. he gave me a picture of him with one of his kids [frm preschool don't worry lol] and since i had on v's sweatshirt (which he doesn't know i took and isn't going to know...sunny i know you're reading this) he left his scent on it. and can still smell even after wearing it to sleep. waking up to that smell just comforted me so much with him not actually being there even though it would be better. he was there to comfort me in my need last night and we just sat and held each other for a minute. basking in each other one last time until the next time we meet. it was sad. i got my last kisses in before the cockblocker showed up. i left my baby in the car so he had to come back and his face just made me light up even knowing that it was going to be a while before i ever saw that face again in person. he is a really special person to me and i will never forget him...i'll probably come running back into his arms when i return for christmas break. i don't wanna say i love him but i know that there is a very strong possibility that our strong like for each other can evolve into something greater.

"i was gonna hold you tight and not let go."
"i know it might be weird but it feels like i'm not complete."