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-LOVE LOVE.. i wanna be like her...well in my own way. makes sense?

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when I was peeved...

love is like the person u kno u never wanna meet. at first things are all cool, it does everything u want, loyal to ur heart, but somewhere down the line it fucks you over and you regret ever having met them.-j.Ro 1.25.09

in the car..
I open my eyes wide, swallow my pride, and walk in w. a smile becuz. well. I'd rather do that than see me fall flat just so they can show sympathy and give me a pat on my head. I stand tall so I can convince myself and u all that nothing could ever be wrong. but sometimes I wear my heart on my sleeve a little to much to where u cnt even believe I'm alrite. -4.15.09

rap to primous:
I love you. wat the eff does that even. man I'd rather sit on some pretty green. u know cash rules everything around me cream. get the money, you know the rest. lets not evn front on who is the best. everybody I reign on this city right up there w. snoop dogg & diddy. u think u know bt u have no idea I get the best of both worlds like tila tequila. new york quiet down I need to make a sound and everyone goes hush went I touch the ground. right off that jet cuz I go world round. yea I'm pimpin all over the world like luda and bobby v. but u gotta remember aint nobody got ish on me :-p- 4.19.09

btdubs I'm not bisexual (tila tequila reference) and not that there's anything wrong with it jus clearing the air.

le love

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yesterday missed [him] the most i ever have.
--> teared up listening to end of the road by boys II men.
"although we go to the end of the road, still i can't let go. it's unnatural. i belong to you, you belong to me."

miss my fern vern but we talk everyday so it's all good =] he planned me and [his] life together and when we grow up. talking about how we're going to move to new york and all this other stuff. good story. "could've won an oscar" lmao his words not mine. even tho the ending is him trying to jump off a building wtf haha

*fuxk. everyone (meaning vern and sunny lol) keeps telling me i'm in love. ftw's love???? some one explain it to me. because i don't think it's a feeling it has jus developed into an idea.

basketball open gym was today.
ftw. lemme just say it is NOT my thing lol
bt they have it again on monday and the only reason i would go to that is cuz duke and 2 other college recruiters are gonna be there. [it's nice goin to a sponsored school lol] o did i mention they win state championships like every year? lol
i would just stick to dance but they don't even have that lol..all bad
although i did pass some dance studio and i jotted their number down real quick.

its wednesday. have the rest of the week off. NO SCHOOL! 4 DAY WEEKEND woot woot.
hopefully kenny or danielle will pick me up...supposed to go to the fair. and ++ there's a prty =]
- me and kenny are planning are goin to charlotte soon..spring break trip? maybe.
* btw hate the fact that he has his license bt he can't find it. aint that bout a bee??

+club sign up were today:
--> multi-cultural club & youth club [sound good to me]
+got to miss homeroom and second period!! missed my test that i didn't study for yay me =D
+looking forward to christmas time =]

pray for me.

I'm

missing [him] so much its crazy.
everyday it gets easier and easier cuz I kno that he's always gunna be there for me no matter what and my mindset is tellin me that this isn't a permanent situation so everythings gunna be alright. bt at the same time its like its harder and harder cuz there's that voice that's tellin me to hold back because its nvr gunna work cuz its long distance. I guess I just have to have faith. I guess it is tru that absence makes the heart grow fonder.

update: he sed that he's starting to fall in love w. me and I feel the same.

idk what it is about him. bt maybe its cuz he's the first doode who doesn't want anything frm me except me and who I am. its weird cuz I am physically attracted to him bt I'm more interested in who he actually is and if the boom boom happens then that means its the right if nt I dnt care. he's so much different than the rest. I've never sed that and actually meant that until now. he's more of a friend than anything cuz I cn tell him somethin and have to tell me the truth along w. making me feel better. nvr judgemental. gotta love it.

we have "our" cd: lloyd, lessons in love.
since he calls me angel his song for me is "touched by an angel" and mine for him is "I can change your life"

more updates later.

tears.

so last night was my last night in l.a. i'm still here but not long. only less than 5 hrs. and 3 of those hrs are going to be spent in the airport.

[he] came by to say goodbye. of course that word was never uttered out of our mouths. we both teared up...more like me crying and everytime we deeply talk about the situation he tears up...i gave him the gift..the card w. sound he thought it was cute and the necklace w. the definition of love. he liked that one a lot =] he wore it on his wrist and said he's probably going to make it into his wallet chain. he gave me a picture of him with one of his kids [frm preschool don't worry lol] and since i had on v's sweatshirt (which he doesn't know i took and isn't going to know...sunny i know you're reading this) he left his scent on it. and can still smell even after wearing it to sleep. waking up to that smell just comforted me so much with him not actually being there even though it would be better. he was there to comfort me in my need last night and we just sat and held each other for a minute. basking in each other one last time until the next time we meet. it was sad. i got my last kisses in before the cockblocker showed up. i left my baby in the car so he had to come back and his face just made me light up even knowing that it was going to be a while before i ever saw that face again in person. he is a really special person to me and i will never forget him...i'll probably come running back into his arms when i return for christmas break. i don't wanna say i love him but i know that there is a very strong possibility that our strong like for each other can evolve into something greater.

"i was gonna hold you tight and not let go."
"i know it might be weird but it feels like i'm not complete."

que?

"i'm worried about getting to know you we get one chance to see something beautiful inside and out."

soul mate?

Love..in [his] words

"willing to go that extra mile for that person...also caring about them..u just have that gut feelings...u just know they mean a whole lot."