I'm

missing [him] so much its crazy.
everyday it gets easier and easier cuz I kno that he's always gunna be there for me no matter what and my mindset is tellin me that this isn't a permanent situation so everythings gunna be alright. bt at the same time its like its harder and harder cuz there's that voice that's tellin me to hold back because its nvr gunna work cuz its long distance. I guess I just have to have faith. I guess it is tru that absence makes the heart grow fonder.

update: he sed that he's starting to fall in love w. me and I feel the same.

idk what it is about him. bt maybe its cuz he's the first doode who doesn't want anything frm me except me and who I am. its weird cuz I am physically attracted to him bt I'm more interested in who he actually is and if the boom boom happens then that means its the right if nt I dnt care. he's so much different than the rest. I've never sed that and actually meant that until now. he's more of a friend than anything cuz I cn tell him somethin and have to tell me the truth along w. making me feel better. nvr judgemental. gotta love it.

we have "our" cd: lloyd, lessons in love.
since he calls me angel his song for me is "touched by an angel" and mine for him is "I can change your life"

more updates later.