lakers 110 to 109

it baffles me how i'm STILL living out of a suitcase when i've been here for friggin 5 MONTHS. i'm tired of it. i'm tired of living a limited life. i'm tired of wanting things to be my way but yet wanting to give at the same time. i'm tired of believing i deserve the best when really i get the bare minimum. i'm tired of addressing issues and people saying they're going to fix it, when they don't even try. i'm tired of taking 2 steps forward then being thrown 5 steps back. i'm tired of being the overachiever to outsiders when really i feel like i'm average. i'm tired of being sad and careless damn near 24/7.

i'm tired, of being tired.
&
i'm tired of missing her::


my sister, my rock, my love, my support, my best friend
we both need each other in this time of need and i hate that i'm not there.


wanted to cope with everything so i went to the thrift music/book/dvd store
they didn't have anything i was looking for =[ (corrine bailey rae, musiq soulchild)
but i did discover the free section..copped a book on psychology and bought the shontelle cd..eh didn't really want it but i felt since i was in there for 45 min. looking for cds i HAD to buy something or it would've felt worthless and pointless =/

we had a snow day yesterday and 2-hr delay the day before
+ i want left eye's new album
+ i wanna go to the movies
+ i went in and said "i'm just going to wing it."...let's see how i did on that test later.
+ i have artist's block..no inspiration to draw/design/write/create anything

aunt gave me gift card to micheal's= art supplies...any suggestions?? leave a comment por favor

o! and brianna rouzan..love her life. haha she said she would send me a care package! =] (magazines, pictures, burn me cds, etc) she said i sounded like i was in prison. my response: damn near. i'm excited. finally someone agreed to do it. any other takers??? =]

&& i've had lions, tigers, and bears STUCK in my head for 3 days STRAIGHT. i've tried everything.

yesterday.

was busy.
8-12: saw my little sisters; jameson; potential client her baby was adorable and i felt loved because she sed he doesn't let anyone hold him =] i just have that affect on people lol

2:30-4: wayyy to long to be in the dentist's office. doing NOTHING!! that bitch wasnt doing her job so we had to keep takin x-rays and if you've ever had x-rays taken in a dentist's office you know it hurts. the bitch was tryna shove those card things down my throat!!! and i found out. i have 7 cavaties...not big tho so don't think im some crazed candy fein lmao i actually hate candy so i dnt kno how i got cavaties. she sed they were all small except for 1. eff my life.

5-9: pool party for tati and leslie. met some new cool new ppl. was kinda wack tho...got splashed with water wen i jus got my hair done. i hate my hair.

was knocked by 10. yess. i was that tired, if anyone knows me im usually the one who goes to sleep at 2 or 3 in the morning. ha.