body conscience

my body conscience
renders me unconscious because
of how i feel about me
my conscience lingers and
lurks while it hisses
bittersweet nothingness
in my ears. Although i am
unconscious to the truth that
others may see, i am fully
awake to my own interpretations
that make me weak.
what the media wants me
to think, i am thinking.
what the media wants me
to feel, i am feeling. "yea,
you're skinny, but not enough."
and you are screaming
enough is enough as i replay
the words over and over.
Play.stop.rewind.play.stop.rewind.
and the cycle grows on as i rewind
my self-esteem. stop listening
to the positive and play negative
over and again.