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i'm so friggin happy.
before i start rambling let me tell you why...
i got my psat scores back and i qualify for the nat'l merit scholarship that awards $2,500 to over 50 million kids each year for them to give to any college of their choice

ok this is where i start rambling. =D
do you know how much and how dedicated i am to overcome the stereotypes that are not only put on African-Americans, but women and our generation. I mean blacks are usually seen as they can't get a break or don't try hard enough or aren't smart enough. Society puts this big stereotype on young black men saying that they don't strive hard enough to achieve a goal, will only go to community colleges. Although that may be true in some cases and not saying there is anything wrong with a community college, but that generalization should not be tolerated. Another one is that most young black women, especially from "the hood" usually end up pregnant and won't go to a college. Again, not a problem for some, but it's not true for most. Our generation. *sigh* we get so much flack about how our generation gets handed everything to us and how we are so privileged as a whole because we don't encounter the same troubles that are elders have had to endure. That is mostly true but the generalization is that us as a whole don't try at all and believe that we shouldn't because we have everything that we want. That is DEFINITELY not the case. yes some have been BLESSED enough to receive the things that they wanted and cherish but please look at the outcome of it. We are now in a recession because of Americans (meaning not just THIS generation) has a problem of spending money to get more of what they what, rather than what they need. Also too, society or whoever "they" are should not be blaming us for feeling privileged for the things as well as the opportunities that we have because who gave it to us?? "they" did. Isn't that what they wanted anyway. Isn't that why people stood up for their rights? To give children like me a better future so that we DIDN'T have to go what they went through. They create a double standard on how we should act when really there is no blame that should be placed.

I'm probably making this a big deal but hey i have a right to be proud of myself seeing as how I thought my life was coming to an end, I thought I wasn't going to amount to anything. thought "since my life is fuxk up, y shouldn't i be fuxked up with it??" man o man. what a day. and the thing was: today was a really great day. got 100 on my sketchbook! i turned in my art project. got 7 hrs of sleep last night (usually 4..smh). my lunch didn't burn, I mean everything just went right for ONCE! lol it's true what they say: hard work really does pay off =] now one more year and i'm OUTTA HERE!!! (you know that voice that umpires make in baseball games haha..i know i'm weird whatever)

i am officially 80 percent smarter than every other junior in this country ahah
take that SUCKASSSSSS!

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P.S.this are officially my lucky pair of panties hahaha