=DD

i'm so friggin happy.
before i start rambling let me tell you why...
i got my psat scores back and i qualify for the nat'l merit scholarship that awards $2,500 to over 50 million kids each year for them to give to any college of their choice

ok this is where i start rambling. =D
do you know how much and how dedicated i am to overcome the stereotypes that are not only put on African-Americans, but women and our generation. I mean blacks are usually seen as they can't get a break or don't try hard enough or aren't smart enough. Society puts this big stereotype on young black men saying that they don't strive hard enough to achieve a goal, will only go to community colleges. Although that may be true in some cases and not saying there is anything wrong with a community college, but that generalization should not be tolerated. Another one is that most young black women, especially from "the hood" usually end up pregnant and won't go to a college. Again, not a problem for some, but it's not true for most. Our generation. *sigh* we get so much flack about how our generation gets handed everything to us and how we are so privileged as a whole because we don't encounter the same troubles that are elders have had to endure. That is mostly true but the generalization is that us as a whole don't try at all and believe that we shouldn't because we have everything that we want. That is DEFINITELY not the case. yes some have been BLESSED enough to receive the things that they wanted and cherish but please look at the outcome of it. We are now in a recession because of Americans (meaning not just THIS generation) has a problem of spending money to get more of what they what, rather than what they need. Also too, society or whoever "they" are should not be blaming us for feeling privileged for the things as well as the opportunities that we have because who gave it to us?? "they" did. Isn't that what they wanted anyway. Isn't that why people stood up for their rights? To give children like me a better future so that we DIDN'T have to go what they went through. They create a double standard on how we should act when really there is no blame that should be placed.

I'm probably making this a big deal but hey i have a right to be proud of myself seeing as how I thought my life was coming to an end, I thought I wasn't going to amount to anything. thought "since my life is fuxk up, y shouldn't i be fuxked up with it??" man o man. what a day. and the thing was: today was a really great day. got 100 on my sketchbook! i turned in my art project. got 7 hrs of sleep last night (usually 4..smh). my lunch didn't burn, I mean everything just went right for ONCE! lol it's true what they say: hard work really does pay off =] now one more year and i'm OUTTA HERE!!! (you know that voice that umpires make in baseball games haha..i know i'm weird whatever)

i am officially 80 percent smarter than every other junior in this country ahah
take that SUCKASSSSSS!

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P.S.this are officially my lucky pair of panties hahaha

save the children

invisible children

how it started:
In the spring of 2003, three young filmmakers traveled to Africa in search of a story. What started out as a filmmaking adventure transformed into much more when these boys from Southern California discovered a tragedy that disgusted and inspired them-a tragedy where children are both the weapons and the victims.

After returning to the States, they created the documentary "Invisible Children: Rough Cut," a film that exposes the tragic realities of nothern Uganda's night commuters and child soldiers. The film originally shown too friends and family, but has now been seen by millions of people. The overwhelming response has been, "How can I help?" To answer this question, the non-profit Invisible Children Inc. was created, giving compasssionate individuals an effective way o respond to the situation.

How you can help:
Have a screening: show the documentary to friends and family, or host a screening on our national tour.
* Buy a bracelet: IC's bracelet campaign is the easiest way to start making a difference. Not only do they provide jobs for people in Uganda but also 0put children through school.
* Join Schools for Schools: Connect your school to a war-affected school in northern Uganda and directly rebuild their education system.
* Get creative: Use your time, talent and money to help support peace in Uganda.

Invisible Children is a social, palithal, and global movement.
Get Involved:
www.invisiblechildren.com

irritated

im irritated that people always think i have an attitude.
i'm either the outspoken-opinionated one
or i'm the one with an attitude and it pisses me off.

okay lemme just say! i have no problem being the person with a voice and being able to get my point across. it's being mislabed and judged before even knowing the true situation that i have a problem with.

people act like they're so geniune in asking me if i'm okay when in reality i am just fine. and the sad part is they only ask when i'm "distant" when really i'm too myself and being an introvert. sorry if im not talking all the time and i need to reflect for just a moment. and then when something is actually wrong they don't want to say anything. and i'm not saying i'm a needy person or i want attention i'm jus saying if you were truly sincere with my feelings then you would know if something was wrong.

lets not forget that society plays a part in this too. they depict that every african-american woman has to be loud and obscene and always have something to say. known as the angry black woman. bt my question is why??? why can't WE be the ones that are reserved and speak our minds but not be "opinionated?" why is there always a negative connotation on how blacks should act?? this is one of the reasons why i don't like the society in which i live in. although there is freedom of speech, there is censory. maybe not physically but mentally. the pressure to censor ourselves because our way in conducting ourselves is rejected by others. and by others i don't jus mean whites bt i mean by everyone who is close-minded and doesn't understand that there too are people who know how to say what they mean and mean what they say not for the mere sake just to hear themselves speak. i'm tired of the labels that are placed not only just african-americans, but everyone else for that matter. yes we are each individuals and yes we may be similar to other people but by putting a label on someone you're taking away the right that they have as an individual for them to choose who they are or are not.

i kno i've been rambling but lately people...society has been bugging me and i would soo like to move away from this place. [california] and jus go to a foriegn country. or maybe not so foreign like my roots [aruba] or spain. shoot at least out of state just for a good month and i'll be good. bt we'll how australia and new zealand work out since im supposed to be goin there for about a month. [loove to travel. cnt wait.]