devastating

so on Aug. 11, 2008. I found out the most devastating news i could ever think of. I'm moving...OUT OF STATE!!!!! leaving all of my friends, my school, hometown, everything and everywhere i know in this state is what i'm about to leave in 3 weeks. It felt so surreal. I didn't think it was true. I thought "this must be a joke, or a major dream cuz this seriously can not be happening." my best friends are here, the one's i confide in most, my job is here, where i get my money from, the hottest parties are here, where I get it jerk lmao, the beach is here, where i've had some of the greatest memories at, hollywood and glamour is here, where the latest fashion in the U.S. [besides NY] come from, the celebrities are here, where you see random people and the most random places. i'm trying to make the most of it but i know this is going to be a rough transition. me and aaryn play it off like i'm visiting every weekend, but we both know the truth. we both know all our connection is, is the telephone, myspace, and letters. i've lost people before and although i keep in touch with them, its not the same as seeing them in person almost everyday. especially your best friend/your sister. its going to be hard to break that bond apart. we were supposed to help each other survive this school year w. all the new changes. and this new change does not help at all.

this week.

busy much?
monday- hung out w. ry & ash; unfortunately went to the beach and got a parking ticket. who knew you couldn't park after 10...well i did bt they didnt listen

tuesday- sister frm 8-12; dentist app. frm 2:30-4. took way too long...i think i already spoke on that hm..lol; pool prty= WACKKKKK! frm 4-9; went to sleep at 10 ha!

thursday- started my paper...i have yet to finish by the way. [due tuesday]

friday- larry's party in the valley w. jade, bria & other's. got home at 2

saturday- eye app. new spectacles comin in 3 weeks; got new camera; aaryn came over; burnt mission to bonfire--> pinkberry w. moms [pics coming soon]aaryn slept over.
good wholesome fun. lol


now that she's gone im bored w. nothing to do. no one can come over becuz they don't have rides and i'm too saditty to take the bus hahah..i should learn my streets...

i must say

boys are confusing.
they act like we're the one's who are difficult when in reality we aren't at all. now i could totally break this down into topics into categories into subcategories bt im goin to spare you as well as my energy to type. i jus wanna let people kno that doodes don't know what they want or whenever they figure it out its all or nothing. all or nothing for a doode is sometimes not being able to stick to one person or nothing at at all. but we all kno they wanna have their cake and eat it too lol for some girls all or nothing is saying i want all of you want to be committed or none of you if you don't. like i sed this is just SOME i'm not stereotyping anyone this is just coming from me.

the thing i don't get is how are you going to invest your time and energy into liking someone for so long and intentionally not wanting it to go anywhere?? i don't see the point that's a waste of each other's time and i could be focusing on something that's worth it and i know where it's headed whether it be relationships, art, or dance.

also, hard to get. all relationships are, are a game of cat and mouse lol
someone always wants to be chased by the other becuase it shows their affection blah blah but i also know that some like to be the chaser because then they don't get bored. but sometimes i just wanna have someone. just be there. doesn't have to be a relationship. just someone you know who's always gonna be there.

bt i don't want this blog to become about relationships this is just giving you soundtrack to my brain hehe different 'songs' that can help explain the 'movie' aka my personality =]

eh. i'm tired only 3 hrs of sleep cuz i danced til 3. wonderful feeling i must say...at the time ahah now i'm taking a nap and then sex in the city with ma ma. no school tomorrow..i'll see what my good friend grimes is doing

btw:: 2 more days of school and 3 days of finals! beach on last day =]