changes

because of the big interview I had on monday, I was told by a few elders that I needed to look conservative so they suggested, more like demanded, that I straightened my hair. As opposed as I was to it, I did it because I need to just get my foot in the door and at the end of the day I want to be able to look myself in the mirror and ask myself, have I tried every possible option that will get me to the next step in life? And it's just hair...I guess...so I straightened. I like the outcome of it but I'm pretty sure I'll have to keep it up if I get this job, which is very conservative. Hey, anything that will get to the next phase. The one thing I will not succumb to is putting chemicals in my hair, which was the next thing they wanted me to do. I refuse. For me, putting a relaxer in my hair is more mental than physical because I had to make that conscious decision and know the societal impact and statement that I was making by doing that. Also, it's like telling myself that I'm okay with not being the "standard" beauty and that I don't need to be like everyone else.

and high buns of course :) :) :)

032411

everything i'm not made me everything i am. -kanye west


this quote is so true & it's currently what I'm listening to.

something great happened on 032311 :) I got into this bootcamp that basically trains you and guarantees a job. out of 130 people, I was chosen. only 19 other lucky people got chosen! Imagine the odds. :)

now, I need to plan when to go back home before work starts because once I start, it's not like I can just take a vacation or take time off within the first 6 months.

today, I also went to the staples center for a job fair to see what was available and I expected more out of it instead of a mere seven tables but that's okay. I made the best of it and gave my resume to a few people. After, I caught an interesting play with the folks entitled, Burn This. It was interesting.

Tata for now :)

break

So I took a break from my job hunt from last Thursday until this past Tuesday to visit my lovelies at my old school (almost overstayed my visit haha).  I had a great time as always, went to games, a party, step show, Roscoe's, watched the grammy's...it was all good (except for sleeping on the floor haha) and until Valentine's Day but my friends made it better :) Although, I do think a caught a little bug because when I woke up Tuesday, my throat felt really weird and now my nose is stopped up, great. I don't take medicine but I will pop a Halls as quickly as possible. Speaking of health, I'm trying to become better at that so I think I'm either going to cut bread out of my daily consumption or just become a pescatarian (only eating fish for meat). I haven't actually figured out which one yet (you can't expect me to do both! haha BABY STEPS!) I'm sure I'll come to a decision soon.

Luckily, an acquaintance of mine who has a fashion internship hooked me up with a website to help find something. I believe none of them are paid but if I'm able to do that, gain experience, and still look for a paying job, it's like killing two birds with one stone.

I'm trying to go back to LA next wednesday to see Brandon Hines (beautiful voice, look him up) so hopefully I'll be able to.

here are some pictures :)

greatness

I just got back from LA. I actually drove in LA traffic for the first time. gosh it's tiring but I got me and my fam home safe and sound :) We spent longer than expected there, it was only supposed to be Wednesday and Thursday but when opportunities present themselves you just have to  know when to grab them (that's all the time). The job fair didn't really have any employers that stuck out or that were willing to hire BUT something great did happen! The wardrobe stylist did contact me back and hopefully I'll have some opportunities coming my way. :)

*cross fingers*

schmoozing

so I schmoozed. haha I don't really know if I made that term up but I'm pretty sure I've heard someone use it before. My understanding of it is to mingle and interact with a lot of people. But hey, that's just me. Last night was cool to meet different people. They were all so nice! I feel like I was introduced to about 20 people and surprisingly four times people told me I looked familiar to them."Were you at the last party?" or "Were you one of those people that went on the cruise?" Interesante.

Currently: going to a job fair. *crosses fingers*

I'm starting to repeat to myself everyday: "Today, something great will happen!" and everyday something manifests. Let's hope it continues.

ever feel as if you are destined to be in one place yet you have no specific plan or idea of how to achieve that destiny? yeaa that's me.

i feel that I am meant to be in the social surroundings of the media, fashion, action. whatever it may be i know that I do need to figure out a precise plan and start trying to check everything off of my to-do list.

sorry i haven't been consistent. lately i've been busy with a few things:
-sat subject tests..scores are in didn't do all that bad..
-part time job at nc a&t..getting pizzaid. but it's still school. womp.
--> wow. that's interesting the things administrators have to do to encourage young black scholars to be interested in a transportation program. (pay them to work). it's cool though, i'm meeting new people, learning about the transportation business (not very known in our society & they get paid BIIIG bucks. research it)
-finishing health class for highschool credit..did the tests now i have to do 2 essays on std's and alcohol...should be interesting and easy.
-met my new next door neighbor she's pretty cool..pictures soon (going to a concert on the 15th)
-speaking of concerts, I went to the beyonce concert. uh-mazing. more than i expected. pictures for that too. or just check my facebook.

basically it..but i want to do so much by aug 3 it's ridiculous. i'll post my looong to do list (for the summer) later. after that i have to devise a plan for my career. what joy...

my goal is to go to l.a. aug 5. hence getting all summer hw done by the 3rd plus extra crap.





patiently awaiting my ap scores. if i do terrible they won't be posted (just a general warning)

updates.

+my design got chosen for the fashion show. woot woot.
+abercrombie interview= success. but due to lack of living (age)..i couldn't be hired.(long story, short.)
+applied for forever XXI & american eagle.
+track...getting better but coach is being a douche.
+cucumbers are amazing for my extremely puffy eyes =] works in under 10 min. in the morning.. HIGHLY RECOMMENDED
+addicted to keri hilson
+i've had motivation to work harder in classes...yikes one more semester=senior!

still need more inspiration for writing & art work
tats r the thing right now.

i miss my peeps.

LUCKY MARCH 18.

SO today for once in my time being here I am realllly happy.
after school, I went to the mall to apply for abercrombie & fitch (I reek of abercrombie..in a good way lol)
and got an application for american eagle.
I have the interview with abercrombie on Friday so I just got my outfit together for that =]
hopefully I'll get the job so I can make some duckets lol

o so i walk in there and of course i see gorgeousness (guys&girls) so i ask if they're hiring and they say yea so i go to the register to see two superb guys behind the counter to ask for the application. When I'm filling out the app we were just chatting and this guy justin is super cool he was telling me about the store and whatnot (he's from l.a. too) and he was talking about what agency he was with and then asked me "so what agency are you with?" haha i was soo flattered. i said i wasn't in any agency and he recommended that I go and sign with one. =]

o and before the mall I went to go get my PERMIT!! woo hoo. Finally. i almost failed though =/ I missed 5 and the policy is if you fail 6 you don't pass. but hey. at least i passed.

today in school. o goodness. we had a blood drive and I was all ready to donate blood and when I was talking to the lady she had to prick my finger to see my type and all that. said my iron count was too low so she said why don't we try again..so it worked. got in the chair. was just chilling, waiting. I look to the right of me to see how things were going to go down haha so i see the nurse put the needle in the girl's arm and she was digging the needle in her arm and moving it around IN HER ARM to find the vein i was like WTF!!!!!! and i look at the girl's face and she looked in pain. so look over to the left of me and this guy just has a needle sticking out of his arm and the nurse went to go get another nurse because she said his vein was too small. so i was like ooo nooooo. i had to get out of there. my wimp self teared up and basically cried. i was being really emotional for no reason..pms probably haha so yea i didn't go through with it..but for a good reason. i didn't trust those people they didn't know what they were doing. but i felt bad though because I really wanted to donate blood =/...maybe next time...o i did become an organ donor (saying on my permit haha)